Ha ha heah. Loving this song bobbing my head like the ad and pulling my unlike the ad hair. so fun.

Ever had the time where, when you get home you just feel like tearing everything down? I don't know for what reasons but you just feel like it. And so it happened to me tonight. I got home saw the mess on my table grabbed a trash bag and start filling it up. I don't know what i threw. hope nothing valuable. Saw my gadgets.... no i dint throw those away. too expansive. Threw 2 old bags away. Many many cds. Useless i hope. Empty pokka bottles which i have alot lying around. How many will i get selling these plastic? Ok i din't tear anything down but throwing tearing pft what's the diff. After that i sit infront of my comp and start tabbing sites of high frequency. Deleted all pictures in my Friendster account but left a new picture. Tiny picture of Mr CubeHead. yea stupid maybe will just upload new pictures if any in near future. All my illegally downloaded movies. deleted it all away. will regret that later. Right. that's that. I mean seriously how many times must i feel so defeated at the end of the day.when walking to train from office, saw many people, realised how lonely i am. how gray i must look among the brightly coloured. no wonder i get so jaded so easily so often. pft. so i feel i screwed up at work. wonder if there's gonna be any dire consequences. tomorrow will tell. I don't care this weekend i'm gonna do something life threatening.

Friends tell me it's spring
My windows show the same
Without you here the seasons pass me by
I know you were not new
That loved like me and you
All the same I miss you
Today has been ok

- Today has been ok, Emiliana Torrini

I'm terribly tired. 1 becomes 2, many became blurred. Rather mundane, anchored on the swivel chair trying to make sense of what is to be expected. Then it came, that has so many times before. But never fail to sink me in. I shrugged it away. I had to. Or i will never get things done. Not now maybe later. A break came? But too high a price. Mis-said or too jaded to think?I tolerate. No not tolerance. Just dismissal. yea whatever. Saw a familiar scene today, made me smile. Not because they were funny or stupid. But because it is so familiar. Reminding me of my own. I inhaled and it felt soo good. Just for awhile and it becomes blurry again. yea rather eventful week.fullstop.

Cryptic, i dont even know hell whatever.

Close your eyes to see

http://youtube.com/watch?v=k8rRFFi_stY

Watch this if you're feeling artsy or just bored.

Synopsis:
It's about the lives of 2 individual. Being alone in a city, wanting to be in a relationship but feeling there are no good ways to start a connection and then breaking out of a rut, jumping feet first into something deeper and crazier than either of them expected.

When I opted to be a film student then i had always imagined myself wanting to do a documentary about different people's perspective. A narrative about what they see and feel. It fascinates me you know to know how others view the particular subject. I mean do we all see the same thing? How do others react upon meeting complications?

//--------------------comment: i actually wrote this awhile back but stopped halfway as it started to sound superficial.

Anyway noticed the clock on top. It is actually promoting this brand of polo tees. Think it's cool actually laughed watching it. See even though i dont update often you can come here and stare at the clock. Will post again soon just need to collect my words.