Listen to:

And:


If only life is a black and white musical where the words you sing are the only colours you see. Truly the freedom of expression. Listening to the soundtracks of tim burton's corpse bride and nightmare before christmas over and over again makes me feeling kinda wishy washy and wanting to sing my sorrows of the day out haha. Oh, i still want to learn how to play the piano.

Don't bother reading

Listen to:

The Last One

This is a stupid and trivial post but I'm going to do it anyway. As you can see one more of my right sex bands broke again. Which leaves me with just the last one. People who knew me long enough will associate me with these bands as part of my identity. I've been wearing them full time since the start of secondary 4 because i was too lazy to take it off. You can say that it's the only thing that's been here with me eveywhere, anywhere, haha. Yes i bathe with it and it is the nicest smelling part of me. I swear. When I'm nervous or something I'll play with it. Smell it and all. When this one broke just now I felt a sense of lost. Actually not only this one, it was since the last 5 bands or so. I started with 10. I know it sounds stupid and all but with each band that broke I felt like I'm a step closer to losing something. Like it actually means something. If this last band were to break I'll feel naked really haha. But maybe it wouldn't matter anymore because it's such a gradual change. It's so simple actually I can just buy some more, but these set of bands were sorta special to me. I guess I feel some sort of sentimental attachment to them. Well it's stupid. Oh, I need a wristwatch. I like that o.d.m. one. Nice.

Taking Back Sunday

Cute Without the E


A Decade Under the Influence


Liar

A really cool band where you can sing/ scream/ shake head side-to-side with. And i love Adam Lazzara's hair especially in the "Cute Without the E" video. Listening to them again makes me think about the guys from DMD0412. When we were singing them together. Hey, we still have not done a meet up session yet.

faux addiction

The substitute cigarette.

18012007

There was a bunny rabbit. A jaded bunny rabbit. So jaded because everyday he has to submit to lying. Yes wearing a mask is very tiring. He's numb to it now. Indifferent. He doesn't have to wear a mask anymore. It is seared to his skin. And he likes it.

Side note:
Really stupid to put in details for a 60x60 graphic.

1612007

"The power to mindfuck the audience."
It be cool to have it. I want to drink more teh tarik. Tarik many many.

I don't feel fine. To a point that I'm just sitting here staring at the nicknames of familiar faces indifferent and singing to whatever is playing. I hate this.

The Ladder Theory

http://www.laddertheory.com
A scientific explanation about how attraction works between the sexes. I don't know if it's true but it's something to read if you're bored.

Sin

Sloth is a sin I'm guilty of.

horrorScope

Heyho this post is all thanks to cel the enigmatic and bandwidth challenged. It's my horrorscope. Some are false of course. I've put in little comments(they're in italics like this) as you read. Enjoy.

A man who has no balance like his Zodiac symbol. He is not the gentle, cool, calm and charming guy like what you see. He has another dark side of aggression, stubborn and he likes to start an argument the most. Sometimes he can be so depress and unstable. Up and down like he is trying to balance himself most of the time.(wow)

To many people, he is a friendly guy and always smile even when he is mad or up set. His voice always gentle and calm. He always set and comb his hair as if he comes out from a shampoo advertisement(ahaha fuck that is hilarious). Mostly Libra men are good looking, even the ugly one is charming. When he smiles, it is so bright that the whole world is smiling with him too(er?).

When he is in a balance mood, he is the type of person you want to be with. In other unbalancing mood, he likes to make people argue about something and watching it with fascination and fun. He will wait to be the one who compromise and clear thing up. He likes to be in a conflicting conversation(i was known to be the mastermind of many fights in secondary school).

Libra man is lazy by nature. After his tired day at work, he likes to sit still and just look out of the window or read quietly. He likes to be in his own world. After recharging his battery, he will be very energetic again and may even take you out that night.

Libra man normally will not do any shocking or abnormal things to be noticed. He likes to be conformed with his crowd, but if you watch him carefully, you will see the different. If he wear a shirt, it will have to be a zipper front instead of buttons, or a special tie bar. There is always something in him that he will not allow totally conformity to take him over(sometimes i feel like i try hard to be an individual).

A straight forward , no non-sense guy(i'm full of nonsense). He is careful and delicate in details. He will spent extra time to doing it right, than comes back to correct them later. He hates people who boost, or exaggerate. He does not like over dressed woman or make herself a center of an attention(yea man even dressing down can be sexy sometimes).

He loves to read. He loves poems and loves art. When he works he can work like crazy, but after work he can turn on romantic jazzy(can it be soft rock?) music and treat you so gently. He loves to give people advice and normally give a good advice. If you fall for him, you will stay like being trapped in a spider web. If you want to break up with him, he will persuade you a zillion ways to stay and you can not stop him anyway. After he persuade you to stay, or after a big fight, he will be so sweet to you as if he has never hurt your feeling before ever.

He will has his own way to win a girl love and affection. Once she says yes, he will lay back and wonder if he should go on or if he should back out. In his teen, he changed many girl friends because he can not clearly separate
loving a friend and loving a girl friend. He will check and re-cheek if his match is suitable and compatible with him.

Even he is a romantic man(i am as unromantic as they come man), he can hardly understand the emotion of the one he loves. He is a generous guy even he sets his life so systematically. He never knows when he makes you unhappy. He never knows how he up set you. He will never knows what he said wrong. If he is your lover, be prepare for this.

A not so pretty girl with no brain is not his type of woman. If you are not pretty enough, he will not mind talking to you but he does not care to get to know you. Any girls, pretty or ugly can ask for his help, he will be happy to help. He hates to argue by yelling at each other, so you tend to see he argue with his girl friend seriously but try at best to be very quiet.

He likes to have a girl friend by getting to know each other like a friend first. If you want him, you have to like the same thing he does. He prefers a pretty and gentle woman than a smart and ugly woman(walao i love smarts lo). You have to understand his mood especially he can has many different moods. He is a private person, so when he needs to be alone better let him be.

There you have it. Aren't I colourful.

Voices

I miss the part, when we were moving forward now
(On our way down)
But maybe someday, I'll be something more than love
Just know I'll never tell
And when you're on your way down
(Through the clouds)
And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again

We speak in different voices
When fighting with the ones we've loved
We speak in different voices
Why can't we say what we're thinking of

I'm missing parts, now that you've told me everything
(On our way down)
And I was blessed and I've forgotten how to love
You said you'd never tell
And when you're on your way down
(Through the clouds)
And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again

We speak in different voices
When fighting with the ones we've loved
We speak in different voices
Why can't we say what we're thinking of

Not even I will tell...

We speak in different voices
When fighting with the ones we've loved
We speak in different voices
We say these things to know they're real.

We speak in different voices
When fighting with the ones we've loved
We speak in different voices
Why can't we say what we're thinking of

We speak in different voices
When fighting with the one's we've loved
We speak in different voices
We speak in different voices

To know they're real. Real.
I'll never...

Been feeling really empty lately. But who's to care. I need a new hobby.

Are you motherfuckers ready!

This is a song about the stupidity of Hiphop. Long live Manson. \m/

If your life was a movie.

Thought it be cool to do this. Got it off from mrbrown.com. Ok question.

If your life was a movie what would the soundtrack be? This is what you should do.

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie

Start.

Opening credits:
Little Death by +44, When the Heart Stops Beating
Fall asleep with the windows open/Come to me with the words you said and done/You close your eyes and see me/Little death makes life more meaningful/I stand no chance at all.

Waking up:
My Assasin by The Bled, Found in Flood
Cool song to wake up to. Gets you up and start beating people up.

First day at school:
Ascendancy by Trivium, Ascendancy
I always thought I'm a hard rocker since young. yeah rock on \m/.

Falling in love:
Nadir by Glory of This, The Lover, The Liar, The Ruse
The album title speaks for itself.

Fight song:
Static Slumber Party by A Static Lullaby, A Static Lullaby
Woot. I'll win for sure.

Breaking Up:

Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance, Welcome to the Black Parade
Undepressing. I sorta hate this song now.

Prom:

To a Friend by Alexisonfire, Crisis
Haha who's willing to dance with me to this song.

Life's OK:
Paralytic by Dead Poetic, Vices
Always the emo prick.

Mental breakdown:
Keep it on Wax by Alexisonfire, Crisis
yeah man thrash, thrash, thrash, kill, kill, kill. Times changed/and people change with 'em/Some people love to play the victim.

Driving:
Handcuffs by Brand New, The Devil and God are Raging Inside Me
Nah not a fun song. Boring.

Flashback:
Antartica by The Bled, Found in Flood
The intro to the song actually gives you the flashback feeling. Cool.

Getting Back Together:

Your Revolution is a Joke by Funeral For a Friend, Casually Dressed and Deep in Conversation
A sad reunion. I love this song.

Wedding:
No Talk by The Kinison, What are You Listening To
Yeah man my wedding will be rocking.

Birth of Child:

Disasterpiece by Slipknot, Iowa
Bwahaha. A satan for a child. He will be my Disasterpiece.

Final Battle:
Intro by Park, Building a Better _______
Walaowee. A pussy fight.

Death Scene:

When Your Heart Stops Beating by +44, When Your Heart Stops Beating
Yeaaaggrrhhh. I'll be there when your heart stops beating/ I'll be there when your last breath gets taken away. Literally.

Funeral Song:
Novella by Funeral For a Friend, Casually Dressed and Deep in Conversation
Not my funeral. It's for a friend.

End Credits:

Prayer by Disturbed, Believe
Armegeddon is NOW! Let me enlighten you/This is the way i pray/Living just isn't hard enough/Burn me alive,inside/Living my life's not hard enough/TAKE EVERYTHING FROM ME!....End with a bang.

End.
Pretty interesting life. Right spread the love.

reflections

A year passed really really fast. It felt like I listened to Thursday's Jet Black New Year only last week or something. I don't remember much about 2006. Except the last few months of it. But with it happening I've learnt a few things about myself. I'll list them down.

• I'm pretty stubborn with my decisions. Like if my ideas don't get across, I'll feel fucked and fight abit I think. But it's not really bad because I compromise easily. And I'm a nice guy :).
• I know that I can't make it happen, it's almost impossible, but I try anyway. So most of the times I only end up hurting myself.
• I don't let go easily. In fact I won't.
• I'm pretty emotional.
  
• I don't take rejections easily. In fact I take it really hard.
• Even though I try hard, I still mess up.
  

There's alot of other things I've learnt I think but I don't remember. Oh, I've got pretty short memory span. To some it up, I wish to go back. Or move foward fast. Really really fast. Resolutions. Here's some.

• Grow fat. Big round and cuddly. I need help.
  
• Stop smoking? Haha but it's been keeping me sober. But I'll try. I know I want to. I need motivation.
• Imrpove on what I do. I want to be better. Because I love doing it. But it kinda helps if there's more and longer breaks haha.
• Be a better person (don't everybody). In what way? In a way that I can make people I really care stay.
• Try hard not to mess up.
• Decrease the usage of expletives. This I really have to put in helluvalot of effort. But who gives a fuck?
• Try to make this blog live? But it'll die soon enough.
• Do things that I can remember at the end of 2007.

There's a few more other stuff but again my memory fails me. What's your resolutions? Happy New Year.